Well, today morning, my dream turned out to be a horrible nightmare. I am not sure why it happened, but I guess it was somewhat related to my talk to my mother yesterday. As usual, she calls up everyday to talk to me. This time, I asked her to come to Bangalore in March/April. As I am planning to go home towards April end, I thought she can accompany me later in my trip for the another round of surgery of my teeth. To my surprise, she gave me an answer I never expected. She said that she is going to come to my place after I get married. It completely blew me up. I said to her immediately that in such a case I don’t know when is that going to happen. This was yesterday, Sunday.
Later on, I had my dream today morning, Monday. It was a completely mightmare and I completely freaked out. I was at home for a brief vacation. Parents show me a girl for my marriage. She was just awesome to be ditched. I agree to it but I was about to ask for some time for the marriage. To my surprise, parents fix the wedding date immediately and completely freak me out on the wedding day with the information. My mind goes blank, my world shatters and with much courage, I decide not to go for it at all. Parents try to show me their emberassments and all but I ould not go ahead at all. Eventually, I bring disglory and emberassment to myself, my parents and my family. The moment when I come to know about my wedding on the wedding day and I sit down stripping my clothes apart and sitting on the floor like an arrogant and mannerless child, stuck to me the whole day, thus, giving me the headache later on the day, which has grown to a much higher level now. This dream was a complete nightmare to me.
I woke up but to my happiness, I found myself in the same miserable state as I am. The fact is that it is almost impossible for me to think that I will marry at this state what I am. NO STUDIES NO MARRIAGE. That is the slogan of my life that I am determined to stick to at any cost. I hope such nightmare don’t happen again in future and I could go for my studies next year, which is very important for me and probably my topmost priority. I want to marry but I can’t get someone into a miserable state as I am today and make her life also miserable. I want my faily to be happy and they should get a good environment and a good future.